You are in a whirlwind of people who all seem to want something from you. At this point you can’t tell who’s for real and who isn’t — and since you’re such an openhearted person, your tendency is to believe them all. Don’t be too naïve. Some of these jokers aren’t here for the right reasons. Anyone who’s in too much of a rush to pin you down should be considered suspect. It may help you to remember that what you have to give is priceless. Giving it away will cost you dearly. Don’t let anyone sell you short.
Going off the deep end isn’t the worst thing that can happen to a person. There’s nothing wrong with losing it, but then you’re left with the business of finding yourself again. You can’t stay where you are. And as far as going forward goes, you haven’t got a clue about what to do now. There is so much about yourself that you don’t understand — but you can begin by trying to unearth older skeletons that have haunted all of your behavior and most of your choices. Underneath it all you will find the real you.
The role you’ve cast yourself in isn’t an easy one. Being the Rock of Gibraltar takes a lot out of you. At this stage in your life you need to look around and figure out what it will take to be there for yourself. That others expect so much from you has gotten to be an habitual thing, and it isn’t working anymore. Things will not fall apart if you start saying "No" once in a while. Your lessons involve learning how to enjoy things. This could be harder for you than being “The Rock,” but it’ll be a lot more fun.
It looks like you’re getting a breather and this is giving you time to organize your life. It’s also setting you free to see what’s important. You’ve always been one to follow your bliss and, right now, doing that will bring what’s really meaningful to you straight to your door. Any whim that you have, no matter how ridiculous it seems, holds the key to something much greater. When your intuition tells you that you need to go bowling, don’t second guess it. You just might meet up with the love of your life!
You need to go out to karaoke night or play miniature golf, or do something totally inane. Taking the weight of the world off your shoulders, even for a little while, will remind you that no one can carry this kind of stress without some comic relief. You can keep rehashing your troubles all you want. But thoughts are magnetic and negative thoughts attract negative experiences. They say, "The worse it gets, the worse it gets," but it goes the other way, too — "The better it gets, the better it gets." Go have fun — get happy.
You’ve spent your life doing everything by the book and where did it get you? This new thing you’ve undertaken is totally different than anything you’ve done before, but it looks like you’ll actually go places if you keep it up. The best thing about it is it allows you to showcase all of the skills you developed over the years. Working your ass off isn’t a chore when you’re working for you. If your partner gives you a hard time about "not having a regular job," they’ll be eating their words when the money starts rolling in.
All the soul searching you’ve been doing has helped you to see more about what you need to work on. Lately you’re more than aware of how little you allow yourself to have. Who knows? Maybe you took vows of poverty in another life, but that was then and this is now, and those dues have been paid! Seen from a different angle, it could very well be that the universe owes you! You are worth so much more than you know. Your gifts alone are priceless. As soon as you see that, you will be able to have everything.
Mixed messages are a two way trail. If you can’t figure out what people are saying or doing, maybe it’s because you haven’t been as honest as you could be. Why you need to withhold so much of the truth is unclear — but your fears of rejection are huge and that’s part of it. Trusting that you can be yourself and still be loved is something that never occurred to you. Take that idea out for a spin and see where it lands. You want more from others, but you won’t get it if you can’t bring all of who you are to the table.
The person who’s driving you crazy needs to be crazy right now — as much as you want them to shape up, it is their turn to come unglued. Instead of seeing this as problematic, try to look at it as if it’s part of the cure. And if they don’t want you to hold their hand through this it’s because it’s something they know only they can figure out. When and if they pull themselves together, they may be ready to deserve you — but you can’t bank on that. Uncertainty is tough. Learning how to live with it is part of life.
This new life you created isn’t so bad. Looking back at what it took to get here, you’re blown away by the fact that you made it work. Changes of this magnitude make it impossible for anything to stay the same. Everyone you know has to re-evaluate themselves now that you’ve presented them with a different standard. Many of them will take sides in this affair and there’s nothing you can do about that. Those who stand by you will probably remain close to you forever. As for those who don’t — let them go.
Things couldn’t be better. It’s hard to believe with what you have to juggle, but it all looks good. This is well deserved, and somewhere inside you know you can do anything. With that in mind, your bigger questions now have to do with where you want to go from here. There are choices that could involve expansion. Before you make those choices, you need to think about whether it wouldn’t be better to build on what you have — or let someone else take it over so you can be free to go off and just do what you please.
If this is worth it to you, keep it up. Only you can decide how this is really affecting you. There seems to be a problem that has to do with you thinking that everything in your life, especially your relationships, has to be a certain way. Where that whole idea came from is hard to say — but the way I see it, these “pictures” of yours are making it difficult to accept the way things are. If you keep trying to change what is, it stays the same. As soon as you understand what it means to accept it, it will change. | RDW
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